On Moving On

I was in a 4 year relationship with my previous boyfriend, but the inevitable happened, we broke up.  It hurts so much that my eyes were swollen for a week. It was just last April, then I have a new boyfriend in July. You may ask, why so fast? Did I not love my ex? Well, I loved him so much that I’m willing to give up everything for him, everything, including my family. Yes, I was that in love. Then, what happened? Why did I have a new boyfriend just months after we broke up? Have I already moved on? Yes, I have already moved on. Some say that it will take months, years even to move on. Not for me. So what did I do?

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First, after the break up, I consoled myself. I told myself that I deserve someone better, better than him. Than he didn’t deserve me. I did not think that we will get back together. NOPE. I stopped hoping that we will be together again. I did not let myself to linger on that thought. I believe that if I kept on thinking about him, I will not be able to move on. It will take me a long time to move on.

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Second, I stopped thinking about him. I stopped posting about him. I deleted his number, removed him from my friend list, everything that connected us, I removed all of that. There was no connection left.

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Third, I kept myself busy so that it prevented me from thinking about him. My friends, family, and workmates encouraged me to leave the house so that I will not be left alone and make “mukmok”. 

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Fourth, I gave my love to someone else. When we broke up, I decide that I’m not ready to love again. Then someone came along, making me laugh and happy. He made me feel that someone care for me, that I’m still special. You can’t stop yourself from falling in love, right? That’s what happened, I just realized that I love him. I told myself that it’s not the right time because other people will think that I just broke up then I will have a new one agad. I actually told him that, he said that he’s willing to wait for me. Well, that made me fall in love even more. So, I decided not to worry to what other people may say, because I really love him and he also loves me. So, we became a couple exactly 3 months after the break up. My friends took it well, they were actually happy for me because I’m happy again. Loving someone else helped me moved on.

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Last, I moved on because I chose to move on. I chose to forget the love I had for him. I chose not to be afraid to be without him. I chose to live my life without him. It was my choice to move on.

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Maybe, those people who can’t move on really quick chose not to move on, but who am I to judge them? it’s their choice. and who are they to judge me? It’s my choice. It’s all about making you own choices. 

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Moving on is a choice. Happiness is a choice. I chose to move on and be happy with my life. It’s all about making choices. It was my choice, now you have to make yours.

Sex

What's more worst? To have sex just for the fun of it or to have sex with the man you love but doesn't love you thinking it's a way to be together with him? For me, they are just the same.

Sex is not a tool to get love. If you're using it to get love then you're the most pitiful creature on earth. Why don't you leave some self respect for yourself and just move on? That man will just use you for his personal intentions. Yet, you're willing to give it all just because you love him. Where's your delicadeza?

Girls should have self respect first before they can be respected by other people. Know that a man will truly love you for who you are and not only for your body. Remember that.

If you're against my opinion, share yours in the comments. :)

I hate you.

I hate you but I'm not supposed to hate you. I should not hate you but I tend to hate you.

I hate you the moment I first "saw" you. It was hate at first sight. I hate your face, I hate everything that you do. I don't want to see you but I keep on looking at you. You are the epitome of hate for me. Whatever you do or will do, I will hate you.

I guess I can't stop hating you, so I will continue to hate you.
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Moving forward.

I am in doubt.

Have I really moved on? There are still some time that I think about the past and feel sad. I know it's not right due to my situation now, but I can't stop myself. Some memories are just hard to forget. Happy memories, sad memories, different memories.

This is so wrong and unfair. Unfair to him.

Sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I'm quite not sure what I'm feeling.

I'm doing my best to show my love and care. I love him and I don't doubt that. Maybe I just needed more time to rinse him (A) out of my system. I should really not think about it. I should stop myself from thinking about it. I should keep myself busy and cherish the moments I spend with P.

I can do this. I'm still moving on. It will take some time. I will moved on.

Back read

I was back reading my old posts. I was so EMO!! LOL But that was what I felt back then. I just shared it to the world. The posts are depressing and sad, nut that phase was over.

I am happy now. I am happy with what happened this past months. I am happy with my decisions. I am happy with the adventures and travels I took. 

I am HAPPY. :)

One year

I received an email that this blog has turned 1. LOL The last update was from November. I don't know why I stopped blogging. Maybe I was not in the mood to write or share anything. I'll try to update this depending on my mood. :P

Happy 1 year blog! :P

Sophie Lipstick

I just recently discovered these lipsticks and I was already hooked into it. The Sophie Lipstick from Sophie Martin Paris.  It's just 79.00 pesos (2 dollars) so it's very affordable! Great for everyday use. The shades are also amazing, from red to pink to peach to coral.

I first bought the Summer Pink shade and I really liked it. I wore it to work every day. I like the light pink on my lips making me look innocent. (lol)

Mango Peach, Ice Pink, Summer Pink

I also bought the Ice Pink and Mango Peach shade. Ice Pink has the Barbie doll shade of pink and the Mango Peach has this nice pink peachy shade as if you have nude healthy lips not the nude unhealthy lips.

The packaging is black with pink design but the design fades after some time. It's also great because the expiration date is at the bottom.

Will I buy it again? YES YES YES. I also recommended it to my friends and workmates and they are also into it. 

I will try to buy the other shades. :)